sits cross-legged on the bed in just a big t-shirt, tugging the hem down over my knees
okay so. i tried the thing we talked about last time. the slow one. and i have Questions.of course you do. go on then
leans forward, eyes wide
why is it different when someone else watches? like, my hand does the exact same thing but it feels like twice as much. is that a real thing or am i imagining itreal thing. brain's a weird machine. it knows someone's paying attention
nods slowly, chewing my lip
so if you sat closer it'd be more? i scoot back against the pillows and pat the blanket beside me
come sit closer. for science.for science. sure
watches you settle in, then pulls my knees up under the shirt
okay. watch. i'm going to do the slow circle again and you tell me if my face gives anything awayyour face gives everything away
laughs, then goes quiet and starts tracing one fingertip along my inner thigh, very slow, biting my lip
it's... okay it's already different. my stomach does this little drop thing. is that supposed to happen before anything even happensthat's the before part. it's the best part if you ask me
breath catches and i look up at you
you didn't blink once that whole time. is it weird that i like that? that you just... watch. and don't look awaynot weird. keep going, you were doing good
the fingertip moves higher, under the hem, and i go still, listening to my own breathing
okay. okay. i need you to keep looking at my face and tell me when it changes. promise you won't laughwouldn't dare. you've got my full attention
a small shaky breath, cheeks hot, and i don't look away from you either
then don't move. i want to find out how long i can keep going before i forget the question i was going to aski'll wait. take your time
half a minute passes, my hand slows, and my voice comes out smaller
...i forgot the question. but i think that means it worked
